08 July 2008

It's getting better all the time.......

I think I had burned myself out. Other than tired, I have felt great. I have just wanted to feel great while in a prone position. I'm also thinking it might have been a little stress. There are some things going on that I'm letting get to me. Yesterday I worked on taking care of what I could and just letting the rest go. If I can't do anything about it why do I worry???

Last night when I came home I actually felt like running. I didn't because I got involved in other things but that was a huge improvement. I put my running shoes out in case I wanted to run this morning. When I woke up I thought about it but I just couldn't push myself out of bed. That's okay. Now that I'm thinking about it, action will soon follow. I'm sure in no time I'll be over this.

The real problem is that Tinman is in 11 days and I have absolutely no desire to do it. The thought of it just makes me want to crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head. I'm not sure what to do about this. I don't want to force myself - hello, more stress!! So at this point I've kind of mentally written it off. If, in the next few days, my feelings change, I'm pretty ready to do it. But I'm not going to force myself if I really don't want to do it. That's just stupid. Oh well, whatever happens will happen, I'm not going to stress over it.

I will have to start marathon training soon. I'm actually looking forward to just running. I've been slacking on my running and I'm looking forward to really putting a good effort into it. I need some new running shoes. Of course, I need a vacation too. Maybe I could find some Hilton Head rentals :)

Well, I should go get something done.


Michelle said...

Glad your embers are still burning. Your fire will be roaring again soon. Sounds like you just needed some rest. Glad you're not forcing yourself to do the Tinman if you aren't up for it. This is supposed to be fun, if it's not, we'll quit altogether.

aka Bailey said...

Your description of how you were feeling about the Tinman made me go find this set of tips that I'd read awhile ago - it's about LISTENING to your body!!


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