Avoidance

This is what I tend to do when I'm not sure how to handle something. In many areas of my life, when something comes up I don't know how to deal with I will seek out help. Sometime very aggressively. But in other areas I just do this. It's not good. Sticking you head in the sand does not help anything. It really doesn't. Trust me, I know.

So I avoid things that are difficult to deal with, but it bleeds over into other areas of my life. When I am actively avoiding something I start to develop an inertia that spreads. I will stop doing other things because whatever I'm avoiding is weighing too heavily on my mind and I can't seem to stop thinking about it. When I can't stop thinking about it I can't think of anything else. This leads to me wanting to crawl into a hole somewhere. Since I can't do that I generally spend too much time on the computer. Which I have been doing. Since it is much easier to control what is happening on my farm or island or city than in my life, I spend more time there. Ridiculous, I know, but it's what I do. The good part is that I'm aware of it. They say admitting you have a problem is 50% of the solution. If that's true I'm well on my way. Today, I not only face my problem head on but come up with a way to fix it. It's not going to be easy, but damn it I'm going to do it today. Here I go and wish me luck.