Out of control

That's what the last 4 days have been. Completely and totally out of control. I have been eating anything I want. I have been working a lot and not getting enough sleep. I have been kind of stumbling through. Why. Well, there some reasons for that. One is that I started my new, part-time job at Walgreen's. It's actually a pretty cool job and I think I will like working there. But the hours are 5-10 at night. When I have school during the day, that is hard. The good thing is school ends next week so I don't have to work both jobs much longer. Another reason is that I chose to lose control. Seriously. I made a conscious decision to not worry about what I eat or try to get any exercise until school ends. Wow, how bad is that?? Then the other day I ran across this:

Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure. ~Don Wilder and Bill Rechin

Ummmm....wow!! That hit me. Hard. It got me to thinking. And I decided that yes, working until 10 at night is hard, but it's not the end of the world. Working 2 jobs is difficult and people do it every single day. When I was in school I worked as a nature tour guide. I started picking tourists up at 5 am and I didn't go to bed until 9-10 at night, and I was going to school. The difference between now and then? I was in great physical shape. I lead nature tours, so I spent the day hiking and climbing things. I was in fabulous shape. I think that is what got me through that challenge. So, why not do that again. Instead of letting things get out of control and make me tired all the time. Why don't I take control, work out, eat right, get my energy back and get through this??? That really sounds like a much better plan. So, once again, I start tomorrow. I will watch what I eat and get some exercise. This weekend I'm going to go a little over the top. I'm going to work out and take Bella to the beach. I know that initially I will be more tired, but eventually I will have more energy. So I just have to hold tight and keep going. So there you have it. I have done this so often before, and her we go again....