Looking forward

I can't help but look at myself the way I was a couple of years ago and the way I am now. I can't help but look at the shirts and awards from the races I've done and feel sad. I can't help but look at the clothes in my closet that don't fit and be depressed. But I have to stop that. I have to quit looking backwards and just look forward. I'm going to start working on that this week. I'm going to work on feeling good about myself and not dwelling on the weight I've gained or the fitness I've lost. I'm Starting at the bottom and working my way back up. I'm ready to do it. I feel like I've hit rock bottom and am ready to start working my way out. I have to. I can not go on like this.