01 August 2012

Grown into it??

For as far back as I can remember my weight has been an issue with me. I remember being a teenager and stressing over my weight and how my body looked. I was thinking about that this morning since I'm feeling particularly chunky after a couple of weeks of sitting on my butt. Have I been dealing with this for so long that it has just become who I am?? I don't like that idea but I think it my be true. I'm not sure exactly what to do about it but recognizing it is a huge first step. I will need to ponder this much more.

Later that same day: I have thought about it and I don't like it. There was a time when I was the athlete. Everyone looked at me as the runner, swimmer, biker. That was an image I liked. That is the image I want back. I'm definitely not feeling it this week with returning to school and trying to get back into the swing of things. Also, my eating has been atrocious these last few days. School feeds us and quite frankly, it's not that great. I haven't been drinking enough water due to meetings and such. Tomorrow it's back into it. Back to eating right and drinking plenty of water. Classes start so we'll be back on a regular routine. I'm feeling better today then I did yesterday and much better then Monday. So I'm slowly adjusting, by next week I'll be fine. So back into it again. I want to break this cycle and be the person I want to be. ...

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I'm done

 I fall into old habits pretty easily. I guess because they are something I'm used to even if they don't really work for me anymore....