15 February 2013

This week's been rough

Yeah, kind of like that. I've been really struggling with a couple of different things and I'm not sure why - though I do have some ideas.

So first, I bought a new car, as I talked about last time. This has caused some minor uneasiness in my life because I keep thinking that maybe I should have waited. It's kind of silly to worry about that now, it's a done deal, but I can't help but think that.

Second, we got hit with, what could be, a major financial problem. I'm trying not to let it get to me, but it is bothering me a bit.

Third, I seemed to have reached a plateau with Crossfit. I try to work my hardest, but I don't feel like I am. I wrote in my journal last week, that I feel like I've been phoning in the workouts. I feel like I have the ability to work a whole lot harder than I am, but I don't. As a result, I feel like I'm stuck. I want to get better but I can't seem to.....

Finally school. My heart has not been in it this week and it is showing big time. I have been really low energy and that seriously effects the classes. I hate when I am this way, but it is hard to shake.

On the good side, this is Friday and we have a 3 day weekend. I had thought of blogging everyday for a week or two to try and track things and see if I can figure out exactly what's going wrong. I may give that a go. I also want to record my Crossfit workouts and see about taking them to the next level. Also, it's a 3 day weekend and I have plans for tomorrow and Monday. Yeah. Monday is the Great Aloha Run. I've done this race for years, but not in the last couple. I'm not in any condition to run 8 miles, but it will still be a fun time.

Okay, pity party is over. There are many, many things I can't control in my life, but I can control how I respond to them and that's what I'm going to work on. I'm going to have fun this weekend. Do some things I enjoy. Maybe bust out my camera. I need to change my attitude.

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I'm done

 I fall into old habits pretty easily. I guess because they are something I'm used to even if they don't really work for me anymore....