What a difference

can make. Since Wednesday of last week, my eating was a tiny bit out of control. I had McDonald's 3 times!!! I haven't gone to McDonald's 3 times in 6 months, now I do it in less than a week!?!?!?!?!! I also went to a local burger place, twice. Then there was movie night, with soda and popcorn. What else....Oh yes, desserts, desserts, desserts. So it's been a wild couple of days. Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty crappy and decided I needed to get a handle on things. So I did. Clean eating, Crossfit, rest, what a difference. By last night I felt awesome and this morning I felt incredible. It will keep building the longer I stay away from the junk.

I had an epiphany last night. I was lamenting some things in my life when it hit me, as a younger person I never, ever considered the future. I completely lived in the moment with no regard to the future. None. Not as far as my health was concerned, or money, or jobs or anything. It's kind of disheartening to make that realization. I'm not sure why that was, but it absolutely was. There are some things going on now that are repercussions of things that happened, or didn't happen, a while ago. I can remember thinking at the time that we would deal with it when it came up. Stupid, I know. It really made me think. Is it too late to change things? I know I can stop doing that, and I have, I actually did years ago, but can I fix the past? It's a sobering thought. Here I am 54 years old and never considered the future before. I wonder why I had that mindset. Could it be the times I grew up in? Face it, I grew up during the 70's and was a young adult in the 80's, not exactly times when you planned ahead. Those were times of living for the moment. Hmmm...makes me think.

Anyway, I went to Crossfit this morning, I love the 6 am time slot. I wonder if I could make it work during summer school? The unknown variable is always the traffic. If it's good, no problem getting to school in time. If it's bad, yikes!!!! Anyway.... I have some school work to do and some heavy thinking to do.....