Motivation

Motivation is a funny thing for me. Actually, I guess it is for most people since I hear all kinds of people talk about losing it and not being able to get it back, etc. For me it feels like riding a roller coaster (which BTW I do not like). Generally, when I start off after having done nothing for a while, I go at it full speed. I am engaged. Committed. On Board. Whatever. Usually I start strong and do well. Then things begin to taper off. It can take days, weeks, or even months, but my motivation will start to wane. This is a critical time. If I let the waning motivation win, I generally stop what I'm doing. It's happened with running, triathlon, Zumba, everything. Granted the motivation usually went hand in hand with an injury. The injury would slow me down, the motivation would start to wane, and then next thing I knew I was sitting on the couch eating ice cream every night. As I look back over the past weeks posts, I realize this is where I was. After I injured my back, I was taking it really easy and my motivation was running low. I skipped more classes than necessary. I avoided all gatherings and events. I was starting to withdraw from Crossfit. I had even considered quitting. I did!!!!! Luckily I didn't follow through with it. I just went when I felt like it and kind of rode the lack of motivation out. Well, I feel it returning. I have been eating really clean since Monday and I feel awesome. I've gone to Crossfit 5 days this week and I'm really feeling good. For the last couple of weeks, all I could focus on was what I couldn't do in the WODs - that's my lack of motivation telling me to stay on the couch. Last night and today, was completely focused on what I could do and that made all the difference in the world. Instead of feeling sad and depressed about what I couldn't do, I feel awesome and strong for what I can do. Amazing how mindset can change so many things. I now feel like I'm on a roller coaster that is slowly, slowly, slowly climbing a steep hill. At the top of that hill is the motivation and commitment I started with. Granted it's not an journey, there are dips and bumps all along the way. But I see now that if I can just ride it out, this too shall pass. I'm feeling positive and hopeful. Now I need to go buy a new water heater :(