The wheels definitely fell off this week
This is me trying to pick up the wreckage of my health and fitness. It has been a rough week. I had two big papers due last weekend and those kept me glued to the computer most of the weekend. I did get them in on time, but it took everything I had. Then Monday school started and after a month of lazing around, it was back to work. Monday and Tuesday was all day teacher meetings and they fed us. Junk!! Worse part? I ate it. I was a little sad about being back to school and I soothed myself with food. Donuts. Candy. Lots of wheat and sugar. I did manage to make it to Crossfit Monday and Tuesday. Then Wednesday rolled around and the kids came in for orientation. They fed us lunch again. Sandwiches. And I ate them. With chips. 3 bags. Which ended up not being enough good food and I was starving and exhausted by the time I got home. I don't remember what I had for dinner, but I do remember that I didn't go to Crossfit. Then yesterday was leftover city. Lots of donuts and brownies and junk. I ended up feeling like crap and not going to Crossfit again. I woke this morning feeling like absolute crap and my clothes being a little tight. Did that stop me from eating cake at work and when I got home? No! For dinner I had some pad thai, fried chicken, pasta salad, and 2 spring rolls. I feel unbelievably bad. So I decided I needed to come here to purge everything and strengthen my resolve. Although this blog is not seen by anyone but me, it is definitely very cathartic and a great place to purge my thoughts. So, I can not changed this week. It is over and done with. But right here and now is a new moment. Tomorrow is a new day. I can, and will, make better choices tomorrow. I will go to Crossfit tomorrow and Sunday. I will eat food for fuel and not to try and make me feel better. It doesn't. What makes me feel good is to eat right and work out. Being tired and the stress of returning to work were excuses for poor choices. No more excuses. Starting right now I will treat my body with the respect it deserves. So I am picking up the wreckage of my week and starting new. Right here. Right now.