Time to start anew
I have a friend, I can't really say she is a friend, let's say an acquaintance who has a drug problem. That in itself is bad enough, the real problem stems from the fact that she does not know she has a drug problem. She blames all sorts of things for her problems, but rarely does she take responsibility for them. Oh, she is also a master at playing the victim. The reason I mention her is because I think I have fallen into the same trap. Self pity and victimhood are pretty easy traps to fall into. I have been using 'the incident' as an excuse for eating out of control. I've been using it as a reason to eat because "I deserve it." I've also been using my knee as a reason to not be as active as I should. All excuses, all playing the victim, all bullshit. And the bullshit stops here and now.
I have already developed some short term, mid-term, and long-term goals, and they are as follows:
Long-term: by January 1, 2015 I will do at least 1 unassisted strict pull-up and 10 floor push-ups in a row.
Mid-term: For the next 2 months, June and July, I will eat clean and stick to paleo 90% of the time.
Short-term: No sugar today and 10,000 steps.
Going to start tracking my food again, just to keep me in line, and start working on my pull-up/push-up strength. I am also going to focus on happy. Happy, happy, happy. Enough of this feeling down crap. I'm over it. Happy is the order of the day.
Okay, I'm off to move and be happy :)