Many times when I write a post, I'm not exactly sure where it is going. Last night is a perfect example. I sat down to write a completely different post, but after staring at the screen for 20 minutes realized I needed to write something else. Writing is very cathartic for me and it really helps me to process things or dig up underlying issues that I may not even be aware of. It is one of the reasons I've kept this blog going even though I have no readers. It's for me. Anyway, last night, after I wrote that post, what I wrote was roaming around in my head. I think I hit on something super important and didn't even realize it. I have been running without lesson plans for a little bit now. That's not completely true as I know what I want to do, but the details are a bit fuzzy and I didn't have anything written down - it was all in my head. I finally realized what was happening. I always feel pressure to get to school early when I don't have a solid plan. Then, when I get to school, I invest all the time racing around figuring what I'm going to do for the day. Since I have 4 different classes, every spare moment is spent on one class or another. If I have chemistry first thing, my before school time is spent putting chemistry together. AP is always 5th period, so I would spend any free time in the morning prepping for AP. Astronomy usually gets pushed to the back burner and if nothing else comes up, we watch a video. So I would spend most of my day stressing about what I'm going to be doing in all these various classes. That is incredibly draining. No wonder I was completely exhausted by noon. I was mentally exhausted. So I spend this morning planning out the next 2 weeks for all my classes. In 2 weeks we have fall break, so I only need to get to then. I already feel lighter. I printed out all the worksheets we will be using. I put together a binder with all the agendas and worksheets. I am ready to go. I feel so much better already. Tonight or tomorrow I want to throw together a couple of power points and have those ready, and boom, I'm set for the next two weeks. This is why I keep this blog and this is why I continue to write.