27 November 2015

Funny how that works......

It is amazing how a little change of attitude and thinking changes everything in your life. Yesterday morning I decided to be grateful and choose happiness. Yesterday was a wonderful day. Absolutely. Wonderful. I walked in the morning for over an hour. Hubby made eggs benedict for breakfast (a tradition). I did a little cleaning in the spare room. While doing that decided that I needed a chalkboard on the wall, so whipped out my chalkboard paint and did that. Now I have a cool chalkboard on the wall. Watched some TV. Colored in my new coloring books (love them). Made dinner. Cleaned the kitchen. The day passed, I kept busy, and all was right with the world. I never took a nap or wanted a nap. I didn't put a whole lot of thought into what I ate, though we had poke for lunch and I knew what I was having for dinner. There are some things I wanted to do that I didn't because of the rain - clean the floor. But it was a great day. I chose to be happy and I was. I loved it. I'm going to do that everyday. I think, until this becomes a habit, I will have to make the conscious choice everyday. But that's okay. I know it will become a habit with practice.

As I was walking around being all happy yesterday, I came to a decision. I really want to run, maybe even do triathlons. Nothing big, no long distances, but just maybe. I love to run, in spite of the fact that it hurts everything in my body. So that is what I'm going to work on first. Hopefully by spring I'll be able to pull out the bike and start working on biking and swimming. I would love to be able to bike over to Kailua, swim in the ocean and then bike back. That would be an amazing workout. Anyway, the fact is, if that is what I like, what makes me happy, why am I not doing it? Because I got caught up in Crossfit. I would still like to do Crossfit, but I think only 2x a week at most. We shall see. What I do know is that I will be doing Crossfit style workouts at home. I'm thinking of running in the morning and doing a Crossfit type workout in the evening. Or, even better, alternating days; one day run, one day Crossfit. That would probably work better. I will be walking the dogs in the afternoons so better to save that time.

These are the things I want to do. These are the things that make me happy. So why am I not doing them? I don't know. I really don't. I will be doing them from now on though.

As for food.....I'm really so incredibly tired with my long, long fight with food. I'm tired of trying different things and either struggling with them or them not working. As I'm writing this, the AltShift guy is giving a live broadcast on getting back on track. I did feel pretty good on 5 shift, and while I did struggle with 3 shift on Wednesday, that was kind of my own fault. No, I'm sticking to my guns. I felt really amazing when I was just eating normal food and watching my macros. Once in a while I like to eat things like bread or dessert. I know that I can't eat it all the time as it makes me feel like crap, but once in awhile is okay. So there's another thing, after 56 years I kind of know what my body likes and doesn't like and so why am I letting other people tell me what to eat? That is just crazy. So I'm back to tracking on my fitness pal, eating more protein and less fat, and going for the veggies and fruits. I can do this and I feel great when I do so let's get on it.

So today is another day where I choose happy. I am going to do things that make me happy. That may even involve going to the mall later. Who knows. I have the day off and I will do what I want to.

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