Watching the numbers

A strange thing happens in my brain when I start counting calories or points or macronutrients or whatever. I go a little insane. I become so obsessed with the numbers that I lose track of the fact that I'm eating food and need to survive. Last time I did WW, it became almost a game to see how many points I could have left over at the end of the day. That is not good. That means, I'm not eating. Than means, bad things will go on in my body. I did the same thing when I tried counting calories. I tried to get by on the least amount possible. This has never worked out well for me, for a number of reasons. The main one being that I can't sustain it and end up eating everything in sight. Then I beat myself up because I have no willpower. Ugh!!! For someone so smart, I can be such an idiot.

So this time I'm trying to make it different. I'm not focusing on the numbers. I'm tracking, but that is not where my main focus lies. I'm focusing on the food. I'm trying to eat things I know are healthy regardless of the point value. I'm trying to view it as eating enough, rather than eating less. When I was working with the coaches at Crossfit, I learned that I really don't eat enough. So I'm trying to focus my energy there. If I don't eat enough my body doesn't work right, simple as that. So my focus is on eating good, whole food and getting my body functioning properly. I think if I focus on that, I will lose weight. Rather then starving and bingeing, just eating steady will definitely help. I have also loosened up on my eating. Right now I'm eating a bowl of Kashi Go Lean Crunch. I love this stuff but have stayed away from it for years because of the carbs. Life is too short to not eat what one enjoys.

Okay, that is all I have to say. Today is Veterans Day and I'm off. I am going to finish my cereal and do something.....don't know what, but something.....