At the starting line

That is how I feel. After yesterday's post and revelation to myself, I feel like a weight has been lifted and I'm at the start of something fabulous. What has also helped with this is knowing is Hubby 100% on board with it. Up until very recently, I wasn't sure if he was humoring me or not about this move. But in the last few days, he has made some comments that make me realize he is as serious about this move as I am. Yeah!!! So between that and the desire to be absolutely ready for this move, I feel like I'm on the starting line of something really big. If all goes according to plan, in 17 - 18 short months we will be out of here. Wow, it is so trippy to think about that. It has been a fabulous time, but it is definitely time to go. I have a feeling this is going to go faster than even I think it will. We have lots and lots to do in the meantime.

Moving on to yesterday. I went to Crossfit and the WOD was:

10 front squats
then
50-40-30-20-10
double unders
sit ups
then
10 front squats

This morning, I am so incredibly sore through my core area, it hurts to move. Yikes. Today should be fun.

One of the things that Crossfit has taught me is not to quit. Yesterday I was the last one finished and I knew I was moving slower than everyone else. During the 50 sit ups and the 40 sit ups, I thought of actually cutting the workout short. But then I thought, why? So I'm slow, I'm still doing it. So I'm last, I'm also the oldest person in the room and I've just returned from 6 months off. This is a lesson I learned the last time I joined Crossfit and clearly it was something that I needed to relearn. I'm sure I'll relearn it again and again. It is a good lesson to have in my pocket for life though. Things are not going to go smoothly for the next 18 months. There will be bumps in the road and situations that arise, but if I can just remember that slow progress is still progress, I'll be okay.

Speaking of that. As I was showering yesterday, I thought that I should look at this health and fitness journey as a marathon. I was saying to myself, I have 15 months to lose 50 pounds. If I could lose 50 pounds, I would be over the moon ecstatic. And since I have 15 months to do it, there is no reason to try and rush everything in the next week or so. Another thing I learned from reading Extreme Transformation, is to make promises to myself that I can keep and then keep them. So every week I'm going set a goal for that week. It will not be outrageous, but it will be something that will move me towards my ultimate goal of 50 pounds down in 15 months. Starting today, the promise is to drink lots of water. I will drink enough water where I have to refill my water bottle twice each day. That's it. Nothing earth shattering, but definitely something I need to work on. I will also walk the dogs and go to Crossfit and all that other stuff, but this week water will be my main focus.

I'm feeling good about my realizations. I feel like a weight has been lifted and things are clearer now. I know that I have had a somewhat negative attitude recently and I'm not like that. Getting my positive attitude back feels really, really good.