Well, that was horrible

Today was the first day without any coffee. It was horrible. I had a splitting headache. I was exhausted and nauseous at lunch. It was truly horrible. I ended up eating some chocolate covered popcorn, fudge, and cookies I really didn't want to. I finally took some Aleve around noon and things started to clear up. The headache subsided and I could focus again. But by the time I got home I was exhausted again. This sucks. But now I'm in the quandary of what to do. I could get up in the morning and have a cup of coffee. That will probably help ease the symtoms of the withdrawal, but now that I've gone through today do I want to go backwards? I'm thinking that I just need to keep going now and suffer through it. This completely sucks. I felt so bad today, that I have honestly begun to wonder if I have something wrong with me. I'm not joking. I'm really tired. Really. Tired. Is it my weight or is there something wrong? It really scares me. But then I think back on the last time I was this fat and I remember napping and sleeping a lot. Okay, I will kick the coffee. I will get through this and I will start my weight loss journey.