This is why I teach summer school

This was me today. Pretty much all day too. I did get up and go for a walk this morning, but after that I spent most of the time on the couch. This is why I teach summer school. Because if left to my own devices, I do nothing. Something has to change. I don't like being lazy. When I'm lazy I get nothing done and things just pile up around me. I don't want to be like that. When I'm lazy, I feel fat. Like I do now. Because sitting around doing nothing does not promote muscle growth. I have got to change something. This happens every single time I have a break of any kind. You would think that by now I have it mastered, but I don't. It's something I struggle with every time. I need to keep moving. I spent so much time on the couch today, my neck is sore. That's just crazy. I think I just need to create a to-do list at night for the next day. That way I have a list of things to do and don't spend so much time on the couch. Ugh!!!! Why??? Why???? Why?????

After typing this I got out my bujo journal (which I have not touched in about 4 weeks) and updated it. I set it up for tomorrow. I made a to-do list and I filled in the June items that need to be done. I also made a master to-do list for the move. So now I have a plan for tomorrow. This is just something I need to do. I need to sit down every night and plan for the next day. I cannot leave it until morning because then I will not have a plan and nothing will get done. I need to know what I'm doing and have a task list to complete. I just have to accept that this is something I have to do every single day. I cannot just let things happen. I have to plan. I have to. Yes, I know I keep repeating that, because deep down I don't believe I'm that type of person. I feel like I'm the type of person who goes with the flow. But I think things have changed over the years. I used to be like that, but not anymore. It is too easy for me to just end up doing nothing. When I have a lot to do, I freeze. I usually do that when I'm feeling down and there are things I don't want to do. But this time it is happening with something I want to do. I guess it is just a way I react when I have a lot to do. So now that I know that and have accepted it, I need to accept that I need to create to-do lists to get things done. My lists to not have to be monstrous and take all day to complete, but I have to have some things to do. There can still be time for napping and relaxing. Okay, I really do feel better. I really think that having so much to do just messes with my mind far too much. So, in order to keep things in order and to keep us moving forward, I need to spend 10 minutes every night creating a list and planning for the next day.

It is amazing how much better I feel when I have a little control. I cannot let life just happen to me, I must be the captain of my ship.