When I last posted I was angry. I was angry that I felt so huge. Angry that I wasn't working out. Just angry. I realized that I can't come at this from a place of anger. It just doesn't work, at least for me. The quote on my blog today is this:
Crave for a thing, you will get it. Renounce the craving, the object will follow you by itself.
How very appropriate. So I've trying to focus on the positive. I'm healthy. I'm happy. I love where we live and I love where I work. Things are really, really looking up for the first time in years. I have lots to be positive about and that includes the fact that I am overweight. I should be thankful that I am lucky enough to have so much food I get fat. Not that I want to be fat, but there are lots of people in this country and the world over that are hungry. I am not. Never. So coming from a positive viewpoint, I want to lose weight and get healthy for positive reasons. I want to have more energy than I have and I want to feel good and not be so tired. I am working towards being healthy and energetic, not working to get away from something. It really is all in the attitude.
Yesterday I got to tell my old neighbor what I thought of her, it was great. There is a lot more I would like to say to her but I am so much happier and peaceful when she is nothing but a bad memory. There is still a $108.35 balance on the water bill and at this point, I don't even care about it. I will just pay the bill and be done with that whole state. It is sad that one person, or two people in this case, can ruin something so totally and completely. But I'm not going to dwell on that. I actually feel sorry for them. Our life here is so, so much better that I rather feel sorry for anyone still stuck in Hawaii struggling. We are going away next weekend and I'm so excited about it. People in Hawaii don't just go away for the weekends, at least not many. Food here is so much cheaper. Gas is so much cheaper. Everything is cheaper. I really love it. I fell right back into mainland life and realized that I never quite left it in my mind. So I am very happy and I think of that bitch working six or seven days a week while I work four and I just laugh. It is awesome. So I am officially completely and totally done with that bitch and her mouth-breathing boyfriend. I hope they live miserably ever after.
So today I will be shopping and prepping. Going to eat well this week and continue to move in the positive.