17 December 2016
I really, truly think I'm done.
I have not worked out in 11 days. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. I have not done yoga. I have not walked much at all. I have not been to Crossfit. And I can feel it. I feel all soft and squishy. Softer and squishier than normal. I have zero aerobic capacity - walking up 2 flights of stairs almost killed me. And excuses. I've got them.
And the list goes on and on. Even I have gotten tired of hearing them from myself.
Then there is the timing. I think, okay I'll start today. But I have to stay late at school tonight, so I'll start tomorrow. But then I have this thing due. And I have to go here. And I have to do this. blah, blah, blah.
I have to do something. My eating is not out of control, it's not perfect, but it really isn't that bad. Except that, I don't think I'm eating enough. I need to figure that out. But more important is that I really have to get moving. I. Have. To. If I get moving my eating will fall into place, that's just the way it works. So I need to get moving. So rather than saying I'm going to go to Crossfit every day this week, or I'm going to walk for an hour on the treadmill or I'm going to start running again......blah, blah, blah. I need to start really small. Really. Small. I'm thinking of starting with the treadmill for 10 minutes at a time a couple of times a day. So I'm home today; I'll jump on after breakfast, then again in a couple of hours, and again in a couple of hours. So eventually I will accumulate 1 hour of time on the treadmill in small increments. Towards that end, I'm signing up for a virtual race to use that as motivation to accumulate the miles. I will set my Garmin to record each activity and will only log those miles. It will be slow but it will happen.
So I left yesterday and never finished this. I had plans to walk on the treadmill a number of times and see how that worked out. Well, that didn't happen. We ended up going to a Christmas fair and staying there, walking around, for 3 hours. Then we went to lunch and did a little shopping and came home and then went out to dinner later. So I really wasn't around much yesterday at all. That's a good thing, I got out and was moving the whole day. But it is also a bad thing because I got zero work on my dissertation done. Ugh!!! I have to submit something by tomorrow. I've made some changes and updates, but there is still a whole lot to do.
The above paragraph was written about an hour ago and since then I have, eaten breakfast, cruised Facebook a lot, gotten a delivery from Amazon, and walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes. My goal is to accumulate 1 hour over the course of a day. If I do that I will gradually get better and better and will be able to go longer and longer.
Alright, enough. I'm going to post this and work on my dissertation for a couple of hours.
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