I just got back from my walk. I usually listen to a podcast while I walk, it's about the only time I have to listen, but today I decided to walk in silence. I realized that I am not spending enough time inside my head and that is more important than listening to a podcast. So I walked in silence. And I thought. I looked at things and did a little analysis.
Yesterday was my lowest point. I realized that on my walk. Because I let myself get so low, I let it affect my dog. I can't do that. Ever. He relies on me to make sure things are okay for him and I didn't do that yesterday. As a result of that he not only looks funny, but is in pain. I can't ever let that happen again. And the only reason it happened is because I let my self care slide and I was not being mindful and thinking clearly. Never, ever, again. Lesson learned, I just hope it hasn't done irreparable harm to Mavy.
I need to shake myself out of this slump and I'm already on the way. It's going to be a bit of an uphill battle for a day or so, but I can do it.
No more. I will never let that happen again. Ever.
Now to find something constructive to work on before I hit the showers.