So I've been blogging almost every day since I started break 2 weeks ago. And I feel a lot better mentally than I did when I started break. I have gotten things done, though there is always still more to do, and I'm feeling much, much better about things overall. Blogging is good for my mental health as it allows me to get things out of my head. It allows me to dump things that are in there and process them or not. So I think I should make it a habit again. Maybe not every day but frequently. I tend to blog in the mornings but there is no law that says I can't do it at night. It's just at night I'm usually kind of brain dead and it's hard to think of things to say. Of course, if I just blog about my day that would work too. Okay, enough. I need to do it regularly and that's all there is to it.
So I discovered an interesting thing yesterday. It was supposed to be my day to photograph everything. I have PhotoRoom which allows me to take pretty ordinary pictures and turn them into something kind of awesome. So yesterday was my day. I had a plan and everything. I was going to photograph everything and process them in Photoroom. And I mean everything. All my earrings. All my keychains. Everything. So I got started with the big artwork. Now as I'm doing this I realized that I have probably done most of these before. Did I go look and check so that I wasn't duplicating work? No. I just kept doing it. Once I was done with those, I thought about moving my car and getting the earrings and keychain. Then I started watching TV. Then we went and got haircuts. Then we grabbed lunch and I came home and took a nap. Then I just didn't feel like doing it. As I thought about it, I had a little revelation. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing so I was avoiding doing it. I'm not sure how to list my earrings - I have a ton of them. Or the keychains. They are all different. So do I list them individually? Do I list them by style with color variants? How? I don't know so I just avoided doing it. Instead I sat down to finish my biology notebook, which I had screwed up and need to start another one completely. UGH!!!!! Anyway, I found that interesting that I was completely avoiding doing something because I really didn't know how to do it. I have got to stop that. But I guess it's better since I recognized that I was avoiding it and why. Before I would have just said I didn't feel like doing it. So I believe that I'm making progress.
Other than that it was a lazy kind of day. I did get my haircut which I needed desperately. As I've gotten older my hair has gotten finer and really doesn't hold a style well. But, it is still oily like it was as a teenager so it gets heavy and weighed down if I don't wash it. The stylist put some serious stuff in my hair to spike it and it looked great. But by later in the afternoon it was flat. Oh well, it is what it is.
Today is the last day of break, well we have Saturday and Sunday but still. Technically, yesterday was the last day of break. But I digress. It really has been a good break. I really feel like myself again and that is awesome. I really was feeling kind of crappy at the end of last semester so this is much, much better.
Okay, that's all I got for today. I'm heading to the gym at 8am, dentist at 11:30am, lunch with some friends at 12:30 and then off to school to work the basketball game from 3:30 - 5:15. I am so glad that I saved everything for today. NOT!!!