I have a fortune cookie fortune that is taped on my monitor at home. It reads: Your worst enemy is inside your head. I believe that so much. No one can bring me down but me.
Okay, so the last few months I've been bouncing around. I didn't really believe I could do anything. I wasn't giving my best effort to anything. I kept switching things up. It just wasn't working. The last time I was really focused on a goal was the Tinman Triathlon and I did great in it (okay, great for me :). After that I just kind of lost it. My efforts were only half hearted and I really didn't have any faith in myself.
That changed over the weekend. I sat down yesterday and really worked on myself. I went over what I really, really want to accomplish the next couple of months and where I want to go. I have big plans for my tris next year but I need to work on them now. I examined what I needed to work on most (my run) and the best way to do that (sign up for a race).
So I have my first race picked out. It's a 10k on New Years Day. I then sat and worked out a comprehensive training schedule for the next 2 months. I have a goal and the training is structured around that goal. I have other things I want to do (swimming, weight training) and I have worked all those factors in.
I was very realistic in my time commitments and tried to be brutally honest in what I thought I could accomplish in 2 months. I
So for the next 2 months it's all sunshine and flowers. I believe I can do this and I believe I will.