I have very distinct stages I go through when under severe stress ( I guess I'd call it that).
The first stage is disbelief, this can't possibly be happening.
The second stage, is anger, white hot anger at any and all involved.
The third stage is depression, oh woe is me I'll never get out of this.
The fourth stage is calm, rationalization and planning.
If you missed my post yesterday (which I hope no one read and I've since deleted), the socialist state of California has decided to come after hubby and I for taxes we apparently owe from 16 years ago. After many phone calls to the franchise tax board and tearing through my records to see if I still had those tax returns (I don't), I've come to accept the fact that California has me over a barrel and I have absolutely no recourse. It's a long stupid (considering the people I'm dealing with, incredibly stupid) story that will just piss me off again if I go into.
I moved through all of the above stages. When I wrote my post yesterday I was in stage 2. Last night I was in stage 3 and very depressed. Today I've moved into stage 4 and need to figure a way out of this situation without killing someone.
Just a tiny rant: Taxes piss me off and they always have. It seems that the vast majority of the taxes I pay go to support programs I don't believe in or use and it really makes me crazy. Why the hell do I have to pay to support someone so they can have more babies and sit around on their fat asses getting fatter????? I had 1 child for many, many reasons, but one was that I quickly realized how expensive it was. I'm stopping there, I feel my blood pressure rising.
Something good has changed in my workouts. I'm inspired, eager to do it. I push myself and it feels great. I did weights yesterday morning and last night stopped on the way home to run (best cure for depression- run). I ran a 3 mile loop I do fairly regularly but did it 5 minutes faster than last time. I am getting stronger :)
Okay, that's all I have to say. I did aerobics this morning and felt just awesome. I need to shower and head out, I have some shopping to do. Sports Authority has my Asics on sale for $45.00 - woo hoo!!!!!
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