28 February 2009

Start slow and taper off

Okay, I'm going to tackle this just like I tackled my stress problem last weekend. A couple of things to note.
  • I am sleeping too much. This happens whenever I stop working out
  • I'm getting headaches. Another thing that happens when I stop working out
  • I feel like the Pillsbury Doughboy. Ditto the above
  • I have zero energy. Ditto the above.
So enough of this. For the first few days, or even weeks, I will have to force myself to do something. So I'm starting today. Here is my list of activities for today:
  • A morning walk (I need to start really slow)
  • Work in the garden later (If it stops raining)
  • Stretching/Yoga before I got to bed
There, not too much, a nice easy start. I want to get back into the habit of stretching/yoga for about 1/2 hour before I go to bed. It really relaxes me and I'm unbelievably inflexible right now. I've also noticed when I do strength training regularly (which I will soon) I get very tight and the yoga helps keep me loose.

I'm debating about setting some goals for March. In one way they can be very motivating, but in other ways they can be pressure. Not sure yet, I'll consider it today.

Also, I noticed something this week. I taught a class on Tuesday that completely and totally flopped. I mean it was a huge bomb. The regular teacher had to step in at the end and save me. It was really bad. After the class left the regular teacher told me it would be very common at this point for a new teacher to throw in the towel and say they are never teaching again. My response actually took me by surprise. I said, "I'm not like that. If I blow something once, I'll try even harder the next time and really try to master it. If, after trying a number of times, I can't seem to master the task at hand, then I will give up." Literally as I was saying this one part of my brain was saying, 'why aren't you like this with weight loss and working out?' And of course I had not answer. In every other aspect of my life failure leads to me redoubling my efforts. But not in weight loss. Failure in weight loss leads to me throwing in the towel and getting something to eat. Why is that? Can I change it? I don't know but I'm sure as hell going to try. BTW, I went on to teach classes on Thursday and Friday that were absolute hits and had the kids actually asking for work :) So it's all possible.

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