Time to move on....

This week has been pretty horrible. Not only did we lose Rocco on Sunday, on Monday my car broke down and a part has to be ordered from the mainland. I'm still waiting to get it back. Then I started to sink into a depression. I've had issues with depression in the past. I've never gone to a doctor for it because I refuse to take drugs and that's what they would offer. The good thing is that this time I recognized it as soon as it started. I wallowed in it for a day or so and now I've decided it's over and it's time to snap out of it. That means having a plan, and I do. Walk slowly one step at a time until I gain the momentum to run. I'm on it.

On the weight loss front, this week has been a disaster. I started WW on Saturday and I have been tracking every bite I eat - that's amazing. I really thought that I was eating pretty darn well overall. I thought I ate mostly fruits, veggies, and lean meats and I thought that I would have a hard time figuring out how to lose weight because my eating was so good. Ha!!! Hahahahahahahahaha!!!!! Who the heck was I fooling? ME!!!! My eating sucks. SUCKS!!!!!! I've been tracking my points and they go as follows:
Saturday: 51
Sunday: 49
Monday: 34.5
Tuesday: 43
Wednesday: 50

I'm supposed to be eating 22. So this week I have eaten 117.5 points extra this week. That is 5 days worth of points. So in 5 days I've eaten 10 days worth of food. Fabulous!!!! Is it any wonder my weight is creeping upward.

But that's okay. It stops right here and now. I'm going to get back to having daily lists and goals. That really seemed to work for me. My goal for today is to get an hours worth of exercise in (I'm going for a walk and taking the camera) and to stay within my points. One day of 22 points, I know I can do this. I'm going to count calories like I have a barcode scanner in my head. I'm going to track every little morsel I eat today. One day, that's all I want.

Okay, I have to get moving. One day, one day.........