03 July 2009
Time for a change
I'm not sure this is going to make sense to anyone but me but I want to document it. I'm pretty much done. I've reached a point where I'm tired of constantly thinking about my weight and working out. Where I'm tired of beating myself up because I didn't get a specific workout in that day. I'm incredibly busy right now and beating myself up about food and working out is really not helping at all. So I'm done. I'm going to watch what I eat but I'm not going to obsess about it endlessly, which it seems I do constantly. I'm going to eat good, healthy food because I like it, it tastes good, and it makes me feel good. Not because it will help me lose weight or build muscle or burn fat or anything else. I'm not going to stress over when I eat, I'll eat when I'm hungry. I'm not going to stress over portion sizes, an extra large apple will not kill me!! I am going to focus on how I feel. I'm busy teaching and learning and doing both together and it's taking up so much of my time you can not imagine. So I'm going to workout when I can and do things I want to. I take the dogs to the park every morning and we walk quite a ways. No, it's not aerobic or weight bearing but I'm moving. I have the elliptical I'll jump on it when the mood strikes me. I have weights I can do while I'm watching TV. I'm just tired of making it my life's pursuit. I'm done. I'm now going to strive for a more balanced life. Instead of beating myself up over the things I didn't get done, I'm going to enjoy doing the things I love.