The war is over
I came to a realization today. It's something that I kind of came to a couple of weeks ago but just had not taken the time to voice it. I am done. For most of my adult life I have had a bad body image and been at war with my body. I have always considered myself fat or out of shape or not tall enough or whatever.... I've spent really good years starving myself or beating myself up. I'm done. For the last couple of weeks I have been working out regularly and eating well. I feel awesome. My body feels strong and capable. I have the energy and strength to do just about anything I want. When I work towards a certain goal my body responds. The most important thing is that I am happy with that. I'm just really tired of fighting a fight I'm never going to win. Actually, I could win it but I do not want to work as hard as winning would require. So I am done. I will spend some time looking for the best face cream and I will move on and enjoy my life. I plan on eating right and working out regularly, I just don't plan on obsessing about the numbers. I am completely done with that.