Last week I had all these plans to "start over" to get everything organized and hit the ground running on Monday. Yeah, that didn't happen. I'm not sure what exactly went wrong but something did. I haven't been doing very well this week at all. In fact yesterday I was in such a bad mood it actually shocked me. There's a whole lot of stupid sh*t going on at work and yesterday it was just making me crazy. Anyway, the stupid sh*t at work has led me to realize I need to get my act together if I don't want to put up with it anymore.
I was so out of it earlier that I stopped this post and moved on with my life. Well, now I'm back. As I posted over on Flo's Place, I had to admit to some disturbing truths. I generally feel like I'm inadequate. Lots of times I feel like I'm an impostor in my own life. I'm a teacher yet I do not feel like I am qualified to teach. I do a lot of things that I usually feel like I'm just not qualified to do. I feel like I just don't do things well enough. I don't know if it's self-confidence or what but seriously, these are the thoughts I have. So, what do I do about it? I tackle something. I throw myself into something and get something accomplished. That's just what I did. I cleaned off my desk. I got my plan book done for school. I started to work on what I'm doing next in my classes. I'm definitely making progress and I'm feeling better. I still feel like an impostor but at least I'm an impostor that's doing something :)
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