Reality Check

So last night I was all 'oh, the scale doesn't rule my life anymore, I'm so over it' blah, blah, blah..... I got up this morning and the first thing on my mind was my weigh-in. Now it may be due to the fact that I was posting about it last night or it may be due to the fact that I'm really not so over it as I thought. Anyway, I got up, fed the birds to shut them up, then headed to the scale. I had already eliminated everything that was ready to leave if you know what I mean. I said to myself as I stepped on it, this does not affect me in anyway. Whatever this says is just one measure of my progress. I feel good. I'm more energetic. I'm sleeping better. What the number on this scale says can not affect my day in anyway. Clearly I'm not as over this as I thought I was. So I stepped on the scale looked down and saw 195.4. Hmm, my immediate gut reaction was 'crap' that's all???? Then I mentally slapped myself and said 'what the heck is your problem?' I am down 2.2 lbs from last week. That's awesome. That's what I want, 2 lbs a week. So what the heck is my problem??? I'm only down .8 lbs from where I started, that's what's wrong. I started at 196.2, last week went up to 197.6 and then down this week to 195.4. To put this in perspective; the week before last was the last days of school. There were parties and sweets all over the place, all week long. And I partook of them. A. Lot. Much more then I should have. So when the scale was up I was not at all surprised. This past week in contrast, has been so much better. I've been watching what I eat, I've been logged sporadically, and I'm working out. I'm feeling awesome!!!! And I'm down 2.2 lbs - YEAH!!!!! So there you have it. I'm not as divorced from the scale as I thought I was.

Now, where do I go from here? Step it up. Tracking my food is by far my weakest area, so that's what I'm going to focus on this week. That and meeting my calorie burn on Body Bugg. Every. Day. It's not like I'm so busy I don't have time to do this stuff. I'm just breaking a lazy habit. So here's to a fabulous week.