Need to get control

This has been my downfall lately. Hubby likes to have dessert at night and one of his favorites is ice cream. Last night it was red velvet ice cream. And it is just like it sounds, red velvet cake in ice cream. I wasn't particularly fond of it but I ate it. A good sized bowl of it. We started this tradition of ice cream before bed a couple of years ago. I was on Weight Watchers at the time and if I had points left over I would have a small scoop of ice cream. I would only have 1 scoop at most and I would put it in a chinese rice bowl so it looked like more then it was. Over time this once in a while treat developed into an almost every night thing. And one scoop in a rice bowl evolved into a regular bowl with 2 or 3 scoops. The bowl got bigger because Hubby shares his ice cream with the dogs, so he needs extra. I do not. And yet I get it. And eat it. Even if I'm not fond of it. Like red velvet ice cream. So I need to change that and I need to do it immediately.

Aside from the fact that I ride my bike to commute and I go to Crossfit 3x per week, I feel like I'm not doing enough for my health and fitness. Maybe I should backtrack just a bit.

When I start working out it is always a struggle. A real struggle. I get aches and pains, some of which I'm convinced are imagined, and I bitch and moan the whole time. Eventually I will reach a point where I start to enjoy my workouts. I will do them no matter what. Once I reach that point I begin to look for new and different things to do. Once I get active I want to do more and more. I have reached that point where I am starting to enjoy them and am beginning to want to do more.

So back to where I left off, in spite of the fact that I bike everyday and do Crossfit 3x per week, I feel like I'm not doing enough. I feel like I spend a lot of time sitting around doing nothing. If I'm doing nothing I could be doing something.

So that's where I'm at, feeling like I'm not doing enough and spending too many nights with dessert. No positive what I'm going to do about it but I need to at least put it out there so that I can come up with a solution.

In other news, my computer seems to be dying. That leads to it's own host of issues. I need to get everything off here so if it dies I don't lose everything. I also need to look into a new computer. I have a laptop but the thought of using a laptop all the time leaves me cold. I am definitely a desktop type person and need to have an all in one pc for my home here. So that's the other thing on my mind.... Ugh, too many things to think about and consider....