04 May 2013

I made my choice

and I'm glad I did. This week has been truly awesome. Work is super busy. There are finals to prep and event to prepare for. May is graduation and there are so many things leading up to it. But it's good. Keeps me busy and the days just fly by. Believe me when I tell you, us teachers look forward to summer far more than the students do.

Crossfit has been going great too. My shoulder is still bothering me, but I try every move and if it hurts I modify it. I'm still getting insane workouts and I'm pushing myself within my limits. All this week the WODs have been brutal. Things like handstand push ups in 4 of the 5 WODs. I can't do handstand push ups, but it did lead to a bit of a breakthrough for me. The coaches want us to do the hardest variation that we can and since pike push ups hurt my shoulder, regular push ups were it. I started unassisted as those are still kind of hard for me. The first night I did the entire WOD like that. The next night had them again and I had to alternate between full floor ones and ones on a box, but most of them were on the floor. Then last night, there they were again. Initially I set up a band to help me, but after the first round I realized that band was useless so I moved to the floor. I did the entire WOD on the floor. During the WOD I thought to myself, when exactly did this happen? When did I become strong enough to do full push ups on the floor, unassisted? I don't know. The transition just happened and I'm glad it did. Unless there are 1000's of push ups, I don't think I will use bands anymore.

My attitude is the thing that has changed most. I have stopped thinking about where I was before I hurt my shoulder and just focus on where I am now. Before I hurt my shoulder I was doing incredible things. Lifting heavy, heavy weights. Snatching and squatting amazing amounts of weight. I can't do that RIGHT NOW. So instead of whining about not being where I was, I work slowly on getting back there. I can't dwell on the past, I must keep focused on the here and now. As a result of this attitude, I am making progress, my shoulder is slowly getting better, and I am getting stronger all over. So I will continue to focus on progress not perfection and continue to make strides.

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