I know how powerful these things are, but I forget sometimes. This morning seems to be a constant reminder of that though. But let me back up and start with yesterday.
I woke up yesterday morning and everything was just fine. I did the same things I always do and I headed off to work. Once at work, again I did the same things I always do as I went about my day. I'm sitting at my desk working when I my upper lip starts to feel weird. Hmmmm..It feels like it's swelling up. Hmmmmm, that's weird. It gets worse and worse and worse. Finally I go downstairs to talk to my friend and the first thing she says is what the heck is wrong? I don't know.....As I'm talking to her, I lift my arm and she notices I have hives on my arm. What?????Sure enough. I make a trip to the bathroom and discover I have hives on my upper legs too. WTH???? I take some Benadryl and the lip feels like it goes down a bit, but then it starts to get bigger. I finally realize something needs to be done, so I head to the principals office to tell them I am going to go home. The principal takes one look at me and says what is wrong? Again, I don't know!!!! Anyway, she won't let me drive my car, but has the secretary drive me to the ER and they call Hubby to meet me there. They have no idea what caused it, the consensus seems to be the clams we had the night before but no one is positive. 2 hours later, an IV of Benadryl, prednisone, and pepcid the hives are gone but the lip is still there. They let me go with prescriptions for all of the above plus an Epipen. The theory being, if I'm allergic to something and we don't know what, I could be exposed to it again. If the reaction is worse and my throat starts to close up, the Epipen will help.
This episode screwed up my entire day. I had the whole day planned. After school my friend was doing a Murder Board at CFO, so I was going to go there and take a class with him. Then I was going to an event at the Aquarium for teachers. Then today I was going to spend the day on Coconut Island - another teacher event. I bailed on last night and am bailing on today. I let them know so hopefully someone else got to take my spot. Spend last night pretty much on the couch. It was miserable and I don't ever want to experience that again.
Then today I wake up to this:
I have this on my gym bag and I love this saying. So that got me a little more motivated. Then someone writes the words to this song on the FB post:
I had forgotten about this song and I love it. It's one of my favorites. So I've been listening to this all morining and it's making me realize that things happen for a reason. I believe in free will. I believe we make choices on our own. But I also believe in fate. If you make the right choices for the right reasons, things will work out right. If you are making choices from a bad place, or for reasons that have bad will associated with them, things will turn out bad for you. Does that make sense? It does to me. My favorite saying is that things always work out the way they are supposed to. But you determine what is supposed to by your actions and intentions.
So this happened for a reason. I don't know what, yet, and may not know for a long time. But there is a reason this happened.
So my positive motivation this morning is sending me off to Crossfit. I don't have a car but I have two legs that work fine. So I'm off to get my sweat on.
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