Kicking myself

I updated my post from this morning about my not so stellar eating today. After I posted that, I ate 2 cookies and then had dinner. I have been sitting here since then feeling like I need to go the bathroom but can't, my stomach is so bloated I feel like I'm pregnant and I have a headache. Really??? What else do I need to have happen to convince me I'm a mess? I just watched the Biggest Loser and I'm all pissed off at myself. I am over this. I know what to do, why don't I do it? Why do I let myself feel like crap and not stop? WTF?????? I'm over it!!! Over it I say!!! I did not go to Crossfit tonight and I have a dentist appointment in the morning so I'm going into work late. I am going to get up in the morning and get on the treadmill. I will do 30 minutes on that puppy and run for some of it even. Maybe I'll start the couch to 5k program. I am over this. Over it completely!!!!