Today I bought this book:
I had a $2 credit at Amazon and it was $2.99, so I bought it and was reading it during school today - yeah, I was busy :) Anyway, I didn't get far and I was skimming, but one thing struck me hard. He says that part of losing weight is keeping promises to yourself. All promises. He said something like every time you break a promise to yourself you undermine your ability and determination. As I was reading that, I was thinking about all the grandiose promises I have made myself over the years. I will lose tons of weight...I will workout everyday...I will workout twice a day....I will...I will...I will....... And every time I didn't do what I said I would I hurt myself and I made really doing it that much harder. It makes sense. This week I felt powerful and in control because I had said I would do certain things and I was doing them. Even when I couldn't do everything I wanted to, I didn't stop doing them and say what a failure I was, I backed off and said I need to take it slower. It's not that I can't do what I want to, it's that I can't do it all at once. And he says in the book to take one thing at a time, master it, then add another. So, that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to master one thing, this week is was tracking the money, and then I'm going to add something else next week. One thing at a time. One promise at a time. Baby steps. That is why I feel so damn good when I make a to-do list and then proceed to knock things off that list. I make a promise to myself and then feel amazing when I keep that promise. The pieces are all starting to come together.