22 February 2015

Very much a work in progress

I guess the hardest thing for me to grasp is the fact that at 55 years old I still don't have all the answers. I honestly thought that by now I would know what I was doing. That is just not true. I am searching and learning just as much now as I did when I was 25 or 35. I guess that is the kind of the point though. If you stop growing and learning, you become stagnant.

So yesterday ended up being a bit of a strange one. I cleaned this room with a vengeance. I threw stuff away that has been hanging around here for a long time. I purged and purged. I ended up with a huge garbage bag and a giant box all filled with garbage. From one room!! No wonder I feel so overwhelmed. I have too much stuff in my life. I actually have plans to get rid of more stuff today. Very excited about that. Need to work on the rest of the house, but it is a good start.

After my cleaning fit, I napped on the couch for a bit. Hubby came home and I chatted with him for a while. Then the rest of the day kind of passed in a blur. I honestly don't remember what I did and suddenly it was 4 pm and time to walk the dogs. One thing that did, or didn't, happen yesterday was that I did not eat much. I had Cookies for breakfast. A salami sandwich for lunch. That was it. That is not a good idea. I think that was part of the reason I ended up taking two naps yesterday. So that won't happen again. Today we are going to lunch at the newly remodeled Kona Brewery. It is a special fundraiser lunch and should be fun. Also, I'm going to have a little something to eat before Crossfit this morning. And I AM going to Crossfit, no excuses today.

Interesting how food effects the body and yet many people ignore it. I ate crap on Friday night and I pretty much felt like crap on Saturday morning. I ate nothing but crap during the day, and pretty much felt like crap all day. When I finally ate some good food, dinner, I immediately started to feel better. When I woke this morning, I was feeling a little down and droopy, but as soon as I ate my good breakfast, banana and bacon, I could literally feel the cloud in my brain start to lift. I feel better now than I have since Friday night. Food. Food. Food. Why oh why do I keep forgetting that? Why oh why do I continue to put crap into my body and not understand why I feel like crap? Maybe I should try eating as soon as I wake up again. I used to do that and I remember it working rather well. While I was getting my coffee ready I would eat something small, 1/2 a banana or a hard boiled egg. Hmmmm....maybe I will try that this week again. That and amazing whole foods and see what happens.

At least I'm feeling better now and looking forward to Crossfit this morning. I need a good butt kicking.

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