WTF?????

I cannot seem to get my act together this week. I've been really tired and just not able to get it all together. I've been horrible in school and I haven't been much better at home. I'm not sure what is wrong exactly. I cannot get control of my eating. I feel huge. I'm tired. I'm lazy. What the f*ck is wrong with me?????

There are about 3 hours between that first paragraph and now. After I wrote that last sentence it all kind of clicked for me. Since the beginning of the year I have been trying to do this myself. I have not had a definite program, just some general plans; eat less, no sugar, workout more, blah, blah, blah. I realized I cannot do it that way. I have never been able to do it that way. I need a hardcore plan. I need a program. I need something to follow. That got me thinking about something I had read a while back. There is this facebook page I follow by Jason Seib. He was publishing some Fat Loss Tips and they made a lot of sense.

• eat enough calories
• prioritze sleep
• manage stress
• don't drink calories
• don't eat healthier versions of garbage

 Things like that. He has recently published a book so, after debating it for 3 hours, I bite the bullet and bought it.

Okay, it has been kind of emotionally draining tonight. It always is when I face my demons.