Waiting for a sign
I have a habit of waiting for things. If I lose this weight...... If finish this dissertation.......If I.......... It is one thing that rather annoys me and that I haven't been able to break. I need to break it though and now seems like a good time to start. While some things have to focus on the end result; finishing my dissertation is not going to happen by itself; other things can be worked on in small increments and not wait for some big thing to happen.
I have spent the last 7 weeks in pain with my foot. Now 7 weeks is not a terribly long time, it is a good chunk of time. I have spent those 7 weeks waiting for my foot to get better. Waiting to be able to do the things I want to do. As a result, my workouts have dropped off and I'm starting to feel it. I have been sleeping like I'm drugged. That is generally a sign, a sign that I have missed these last few weeks. When things are going well, I generally wake up ready to take on the day and can keep moving through my afternoons pretty well. I usually want to take a nap, but can survive without one. Yesterday I was drugged. I felt like I could not keep my eyes open and once I did take a nap, felt like I could not get up and get moving. Then last night I slept the sleep of the drugged. I just did not want to get out of bed this morning. I even made Hubby a deal so he would feed the birds and I could sleep in. This might be the 2nd time in 9 years that he has fed the birds in the morning. So, if I've been waiting for a sign, I think I have it.
My foot is about 95% healed. Not perfect, but honestly I don't think it will ever be perfect. I will continue to take care of it but I think the time has come to pick up the pace a bit. Also, I have finally accepted the fact that Crossfit is not enough for me. I need more activity. When I was at my thinnest I would run, bike, hike, swim, weight train, I did it all. I went from working out twice a day most days, to working out 3-4 times a week if I'm lucky. Time to change things up.
I have been mulling this over in my head for a few days now and I've come to some conclusions. First, I have to have something to work towards. I cannot just workout for the sake of working out, that loses my interest really quick. So I need something to work towards. Second, I need a schedule of workouts that I can stick to and that work for me. Third, I need to get my diet under control. I'm struggling with this part the most as I'm not quite sure how to go about getting in more protein, but I'm working on it.
So, the plan today is to start to amp up my activity, I will be hopping on the treadmill in a little bit here and heading to Crossfit this afternoon. To get things moving, I want to shoot for 15 minutes walking in the morning and Crossfit in the afternoons. Except for weekends when it will be the opposite. Also, factor in walking the dogs every single night - no excuses. I am going to work on my food and see about coming up with some high protein things to add to my diet. Then, I'm going to look around for some activity to make a goal. Maybe a race, maybe the Crossfit weekend warrior, I'm not sure, but we will see. I just know that I need something to work towards.