22 June 2016

Crank up the stress

Stress levels around here have been unbearable and yesterday they cranked up to insane. Axl has been having issues peeing and pooping lately. He pees a lot and strains when he does with little coming out. Same with the pooping, he strains and strains and only a little comes out. Took him to the doctor yesterday because he was dripping blood from his penis. They took some x-rays and found that something is squishing his intestines. Not sure what it is, but something is much larger than it is supposed to be and squishing everything inside him. There are a number of possibilities but the most likely candidate is the worst one - Cancer. We have to go back to the doctor today to run some more tests and try to see what is going on. This creates a whole new level of problems that I can't even begin to try and process.

Then I get an email that my mortgage person needs my mortgage information because it's not reported on my credit. They need to make sure I haven't had any 30 day late payments. Well guess what? I've been running consistently 30 days behind because I can't seem to get ahead. So I'm pretty sure that will be the end of the house. Unless we just pay cash for it, which is an option at this point.

Plus I have a discussion due that I could not possibly care less about. Ugh!!! Why did I agree to take this class, now?????? I should have taken my research forum and made a little progress rather than struggle through this monster. Plus I have the one instructor that I had trouble with in another class.

What the hell am I going to do???? How do I handle all this at once???? What the hell?????

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