Time for a new start
I was just looking over my new year's eve post for the last few years, and it was interesting. I was a fan of new years for a long time and would make these elaborate posts about what I planned to do that year, etc. or the last few years the goals have been pretty generic; lose weight, start running, get organized, blah, blah, blah...... This year I am trying to be more specific and have definite goals and plans to get there.
In the midst of writing this, I got sidetracked by my dissertation forum. We had a discussion going and I went to check it and it started things going in my head. I realize I have a bit of a negative attitude, which is very unlike me. I am feeling down about myself because I think I can't finish my dissertation. Every time I get motivated to workout something happens, this time it's my left foot/calf. I hurt it jumping rope on Wednesday and it is still bothering me. Luckily I have a massage therapist friend and she will be working on it tomorrow. But it is very disheartening, one step forward and two steps back. Same with the dissertation. Same with the organization thing. Same with many things I want to accomplish in my life. And it all comes back to my not believing that I can really and truly do it. So, my main goal for this new year is to be positive and believe in myself. If I can do that, I can do any other thing I have on my goal list.
Okay, this was going to be a long post, but no more. I'm going to shower and get cracking on some things here today. I want to develop a solid plan for my dissertation progress starting today. I'm off.