30 May 2021

A little apathy setting in


I found that once I stopped beating myself up I developed apathy. I was okay. Everything was okay. But doing things for self-care could easily be pushed aside because I was no longer beating myself up over things. Gradually I came out of the apathy and was really happy with my life in general. Now that school has ended and I have no structure to my days, I find apathy creeping in again and I need to stop it. 

Yes, I'm not under pressure to do things within a certain time frame because I'm not working but that doesn't give me license to not get things done. I have things I want to do during this summer and I've been working on them slowly. I think I need to kick it up a notch. Not sure exactly how I will do that. I'm thinking of setting specific times for things. I have a specific time for meditation, why not for other things. Also, maybe a checklist that I work off of each day to get things done in a timely manner. What I don't want is for it to be July and my to-do list is still a mile long. I have all this time to get things done and I want to do that. But apathy......Maybe just a goal each day to complete certain things. That's an idea. That should also keep me motivated to get things done. I like that. I will write the goals in my planner for the day, maybe for every day of the upcoming week. Maybe I'll even allot times too so I don't spend 5 hours working on one thing and nothing else gets done. Yeah, I'm already feeling the lighting of the apathy just thinking about that. I'm in. I just need a plan each day to get things done and also for some R&R. That way I don't let apathy take over my life. 

So today's goals: 

  • fold the laundry
  • wash the towels
  • wash the sheets
  • 2 Units in Google 
  • work on this room (I can save the shredding for TV time)
  • get some sort of file system to keep current things handy
That's a good goal. I'll set it out in my planner later, after I walk Mr. Mavy. That just feels better already. 

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