Thoughts on working out

 I have a vision of what working out looks like in my mind. It involves a lot of sweat, pushing myself to do things I don't think I can, and a lot of cursing. That also pretty much describes Crossfit. Since I've joined EOS I haven't been able to get into a workout groove. At this point, I can only really go on the weekends and it's hard to get a habit going when you are ignoring it most of your week. Then I honestly don't know what to do. I do have AltShift lift to follow but it is honestly pretty wimpy. It does not push me in any way. And that becomes a problem in my mind. Because my vision of workouts is like above. I know that is ridiculous and it's time to drop those thoughts. I kind of got into it on DMSC yesterday and when it comes down to it, I realized I'm just over it. It's one of those things I'm just tired of thinking about and worrying (not really) about and I'm just done. So I need to place my workouts on autopilot and just let them go. If I take 20 minutes, I take 20 minutes. If it takes an hour, it takes an hour. I'm done thinking they have to be any kind of way and I'm just going to do them. A large part of the problem is looking backwards and comparing it to now. I can't do that. That was then, this is now. I'm not going to go back to Crossfit or workout so hard that I can't hardly walk. I'm done with that and it's completely unnecessary. So I'm done. I'm changing my attitude about working out and it's being put on autopilot. Much like showering or brushing my teeth, it's not 'fun' but I do it. Autopilot. 

That's kind of all I have for today. So I'll wrap it up early.