05 February 2022

Thoughts on meditation

This quote came up on my meditation app this morning and I thought it was perfect.  Meditation has absolutely changed my life in many ways. I can no longer tell you how long I've been meditating. That's like asking me how long have I been breathing, it is that integral to my life at now. It took a long, long time to get here but it was completely worth the effort. 

One of the benefits from meditation are that I no longer am moody. I get down definitely, but I think knowing myself so well has allowed me to not sink into deep depressions. I can see and feel when I'm getting down and I may even go with it for a day or so but then I pull myself out of it and move on with my life. 

I also used to anger quickly and it would burn red hot. I don't get like that anymore. I do get angry, but then I ask myself why? Why am I allowing this to happen? And generally I can move away from it rather quickly. 

I am not so quick to make decisions. I used to make snap decisions with little information and while they mostly worked out well, sometimes they didn't. I don't do that anymore. I actually did do that not too long ago with a home equity loan and now I'm trying to figure out how to get out of it. But that is for another day. 

I am still a bit impulsive and would like to work on that. Impulsive in that I buy things without a whole lot of thought. I'm really trying to move away from that and be more conscious in my buying. But that is still a work in progress. 

But overall meditation has made me a lot calmer, more even keeled, and definitely happier. It's easy to find joy in small things when you are aware and mindful. It also allows you to really know yourself in ways you didn't think were possible. 

Okay, I started my tree late and so I'm done but my tree is not. T have to keep going. 

The leg was pretty good yesterday and I woke up feeling pretty good this morning. I have been having heartburn more than normal, I hardly ever get it, and am wondering if it's because of the ibuprofen. Hmmm....so I just looked it up and it said to take it with an antacid. That's what I did last night. I also need to be more strict about taking it with food. I did notice that my poop was really, really dark this morning and that has caused a little concern. But I'm not going to panic until it becomes a pattern. 

Okay, my tree just grew, I am out. 

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