May day is Lei day

 Today is May 1st or May Day or Lei Day in Hawaii. It is unbelievable that it is already May. Where the heck is the time going?  And the truth is, I'm much more present for all my time this year than any in the past. 

I think I'm liking this new routine. I like blogging before bed, it allows me time to dump all the stuff rattling around in my brain. Then I can go to bed with a clear mind and sleep like a baby. That is until Bella has to go. 

Today was a very good day. We were supposed to go over to a friend's house, but I just didn't feel like it. After all the errands on Friday and painting the living room yesterday, I just wanted a day to veg at home. The pool got warm enough to get in and that was really nice. I did some reading. Some watching TV. Some doing little things around the house. It was a good day. 

So I was listening to a podcast this morning and they were talking about doing hard things and being honest with yourself when you don't want to do them. And while I agree with the theory that doing hard things makes you stronger and makes other hard things easier, I disagree with someone who is going to tell me what is hard. For example, one of the things this person promotes is rucking. That is basically carrying a weight in a backpack and walking around with it. That's great if you are strong and healthy. I'm currently coming off a knee injury and there were times when just walking was the hardest thing I did all day. Rucking was completely out of the question. So I don't think that what is hard for one is necessarily hard for another. I've had days where walking takes everything I have, so no one should tell me that I need to make it harder. I'm good, thank you. At the same time there has to be a point to it, at least in my mind. Another thing he pushes is cold plunges. I've jumped into a cold ocean and it's not fun but it is hardly earth shattering. I have never gotten out of the cold ocean thinking I was a rock star. I generally get out of cold water thinking I'm cold and want to get warm. Is that being weak? Okay. I feel like a rock star when I do something that pushes my limits. Completing a marathon - that made me feel like a rock star and still does to some extent. Doing triathlons - definitely rock star status. Maybe I need to stop listening to this podcast because I spend my time trying to argue with him. I'm happy with my life right now. I'm working on my issues and doing a pretty good job of it. 

Enough, the tree has grown and I am out.