08 January 2023

Last day of winter break

 Tomorrow it is back to school again. I'm torn about that. On the one hand I'm like, okay, time to get back to it - cool. On the other hand I'm like, NO!! I don't want to go. The end of last semester was pretty darn crappy and because of that, I'm not really looking forward to this semester. But I have made changes. So we will see how that goes. Got some things to do today, but nothing major. Going to play on my laser most of the day. 

Last night Hubby had a drink. Actually he had 2 drinks. And yes, I was watching and counting. I'm going to have a conversation this morning with him about that. I'm going to tell him that I'm not going back to living the way we had been. If he chooses to drink a lot, I'm going to choose to leave. I'm fairly confident that I did not make that abundantly clear to him last time, so I need to be sure that he understands it completely. I'm not looking forward to the conversation but I need to have it because I'm not going to live like I did before. Things have been really nice for the past 4 months and I'm not going back to the way they were. I'm not. So today I have to have this very difficult conversation with Hubby and hope it goes okay. 

Yesterday I spent all day organizing this room. It was such a mess that every time I walked in I felt like I couldn't breath. So yesterday was organization day. I ordered some shelves and hanging pockets off Amazon and Hubby built me a wood support. Yeah, it looks a thousand times better than it did. I actually did a Supernatural workout in here yesterday. There is that much room now. I've broached the subject of a she-shed with Hubby and he seems all on board with it. In fact, he sent me a link last night to a local company that would make and install one. I think a she-shed is in my near future. I need to go talk with the people and explain what I want to do and see how this equipment can be left in the Arizona summer time in the shed. Of course, in the summer I'll be working on it all the time so there's that. Anyway, something in the works. 

Just got an email for a Macy's sale and I have to say, it's the first time in a long time that I don't have new clothes to go back to school. Usually over breaks, I hit the sales. Not this time. I've been busy crafting and organizing. 

Today will be devoted to prepping for school tomorrow and crafting. I'm going to make a couple mugs. Then I'm going to set the laser going while I do school work. That should work out well. I also have some laundry to do which is easy. Later this afternoon I'll be doing some Supernatural. I'm debating about going to the gym. Now the reason I'm debating is because a. yestersay it was so freaking crowded, I don't want to deal with that again. I could go now, but Hubby is still sleeping and Mavy will lose his mind if I leave. b. I feel like I need to start clean next week. Start fresh. Program the gym into my routine and make it a permenant fixture. Today will be prepping for a successful week of school. 

Okay, I think I've blown through all the stuff I needed to brain dump. Time to get to work in here. 

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