05 July 2024

I've fallen into the summer pit

 I thought I was going to avoid it this year because I had my business to focus on. But I didn't. So I started the summer great. Had a list of things to get done (a lot of which I have completed) and tons and tons of motivation. I was walking every morning and feeling great. I really thought this summer would be different. Then, slowly, very slowly, things began to change. I would have days were I didn't do anything. I was okay with that because everyone needs a break. But then I would find myself cruising Facebook when I was supposed to be working. As soon as I had a down moment, I'd jump on Facebook. Now sometimes it was legitimate, I was looking for something. But most of the time it was not. I was just killing time. That gradually led me into doing less and less and less. Now I feel like I'm on the verge of a depression. I don't feel motivated to do much of anything. I've put things off that are fairly easy to do. I'm in the middle of 4 different projects that I want to complete for my business. Oh, and I've stopped walking because of my knee. So I'm not getting much exercise and I'm just sitting around doing not much of anything. Yeah, this has to end now. 

In good news, talking with Hubby yesterday and he is pretty frustrated with his weight. We are trying to get work pants for him and Old Navy didn't even carry his size. When we measured his waist, it was considerably larger than even he thought. So he got kind of upset and said he needs to lose some weight. His idea was that he would take up his pool workouts again. Seeing an opening, I walked right in and we had a great conversation about diet. I explained to him that you can't out work a bad diet and that is where we really need to focus our energy. He was all in. I decided to go paleo only because it's easier on him. Meat and veggies, carbs occasionally. He was on it. I had thought that we would start today, Friday, because we would need to plan and shop and all that. But not him. He jumped right in. It's great to see him so motivated, I just hope it lasts. I hope that he can start feeling really good and that will motivate him to continue. He had the idea of buying a bike stand so I could ride in the house. My knee has really been acting up and bike riding actually builds up the muscles around the knee for better support. I had fixed up my bike with the idea of riding in the morning instead of walking, but that hasn't happened yet because of the oppressive heat we are currently experiencing. So he came up with the idea of a bike trainer. It will be here tomorrow. 

So I need to get out of this pit I'm slowly sinking into. I need to force myself to do things even if I don't feel like it and I need to stay off Facebook so much. I can do it. I'm going to make a list of things to get done today and work solely on that list. If it's not on the list, I ain't doing it. Tomorrow is vinyl cutting day. A friend has been asking for some vinyl stickers for well over a year now. I've been waiting patiently for her to give me what she wants. Well, I finally get what she wants on Wednesday and she wants them next Wednesday. Kind of irritated me. I'm now supposed to drop everything I've got going and make her stickers? Or does she think I have nothing going because it's summer? If that's what she thinks, she is wrong. I've got a lot of crap going on. But Hubby wants some things too, so I can spend the day on vinyl. Going to charge her for it though. 

Okay, feeling a lot better mentally. This is what worries me about retirement. I get like this over the 9 weeks of summer, what will I be like over the rest of my life. Hopefully, when I retire my business will be a little busier and I will have that to keep me busy. Also, I think I will have to volunteer at a few places. I will need to keep busy and even though I'm an introvert, I will need to interact with other people. Oh well, I have a few more years before I have to worry about that. I'm off to make my list for today. 

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