11 November 2006

This is Mango. I adopted her on August 20th. She was the sweetest little bird. The person who owned her before never really let her personality came out. In the time I had her she was developing a personality that was way bigger than her. She was really cute and incredibly demanding. When she wanted attention watch out.

Thursday morning somehow she got out of her room. There was a screen door and it was latched and there was a footstool in front of it. But still she found a way out. Unfortunately, Nala the pit bull found her before I did. I thought I had got to her in time as she really seemed okay. No blood and after a few minutes she was moving around and seemed really fine. But as sometimes happens with injuries, the worst ones took a couple of days to show up. I came home tonight and found her dead in her cage.

I have so many emotions running around in me I don't know what to do. I'm so sad. She was only 4 years old and really just starting to learn to enjoy her life. I feel horribly guilty. If I hadn't left her out of her cage she never would have gotten out of the room. But it was something I did every morning and she usually ate her breakfast during that time. I don't think her previous owner gave her a lot of fresh foods cause she loved them and would bury her head in bowl to eat. All you would see is her feet gripping the bowl edge and her little butt sticking up in the air.

I'm not mad at Nala. She's just a dog and was doing what dogs do.

I feel so horrible and miss her like crazy. I only had her for 3 months but she was so sweet and loving I got attached to her really quickly.

Okay, I'm crying the ugly cry. I've got to go calm down. I'll have this big cage in my computer room to remind me of her everyday.


Ann (bunnygirl) said...

I'm so sorry, Flo! At least you gave her a good life. It sounds like if she was suffering, she hid it well-- a normal instinct for them, but one that usually works out badly for them in our world, since it leaves us unaware they need help.

I don't think you did anything wrong, and it's a certainty that Mango never felt like you failed her in any way.

Dr. Iron TriFeist :) said...

Oh, Flo don't blame yourself. It was just an accident.

Vickie said...

Oh, I am SO sorry to hear about your poor bird! I know how you feel, having lost a few pets myself due to things I blame myself for. I hope your heart heals soon.

sharon said...

It's amazing how much we get attached to our pets and how much we love them. People who don't love animals don't seem to understand the loss when we pet lovers lose one.
I'm sorry for your loss Flo

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