11 November 2006
This is Mango. I adopted her on August 20th. She was the sweetest little bird. The person who owned her before never really let her personality came out. In the time I had her she was developing a personality that was way bigger than her. She was really cute and incredibly demanding. When she wanted attention watch out.
Thursday morning somehow she got out of her room. There was a screen door and it was latched and there was a footstool in front of it. But still she found a way out. Unfortunately, Nala the pit bull found her before I did. I thought I had got to her in time as she really seemed okay. No blood and after a few minutes she was moving around and seemed really fine. But as sometimes happens with injuries, the worst ones took a couple of days to show up. I came home tonight and found her dead in her cage.
I have so many emotions running around in me I don't know what to do. I'm so sad. She was only 4 years old and really just starting to learn to enjoy her life. I feel horribly guilty. If I hadn't left her out of her cage she never would have gotten out of the room. But it was something I did every morning and she usually ate her breakfast during that time. I don't think her previous owner gave her a lot of fresh foods cause she loved them and would bury her head in bowl to eat. All you would see is her feet gripping the bowl edge and her little butt sticking up in the air.
I'm not mad at Nala. She's just a dog and was doing what dogs do.
I feel so horrible and miss her like crazy. I only had her for 3 months but she was so sweet and loving I got attached to her really quickly.
Okay, I'm crying the ugly cry. I've got to go calm down. I'll have this big cage in my computer room to remind me of her everyday.
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