18 July 2009

Busy, busy weekend

So much to do and here I sit blogging. Bad, Bad!!!! I may go this afternoon and help set up the animal shelter to get ready for the arriving animals tomorrow. I'm sure tons of things need to be done, set up crates, organize supplies, make sure there are enough cat supplies and dog supplies. I'm sure they need all the help they can get so I may do that.

It's interesting. In my classes we have done the Meyers-Briggs personality assessment a number of times. I always come out as in introvert which surprises most people who know me. But that's because I prefer to be in my head. I enjoy being alone, I get my energy and excitement from my own thoughts. I don't like large parties and the thought of making small talk makes me start to hyperventilate. As a result of this trait I tend to not do things. Something like going to help at this animal rescue gives me the heebie-jeebies only because it's so outside of what I prefer to do. I would much rather sit at home with my animals and read a book.

On the other hand, I love having new experiences and doing things I don't normally do. So this is the first time one of these rescues are being done in Hawaii and it might not happen again while I'm here. I want to help. I want to have the experience and, as a huge animal lover, help these poor creatures out. So this creates conflict in my head. Do I go? Don't I go? I'm sure I'm going to go but I always seem to have to have a little conflict, at least in my head.....

Right now I'm taking my dogs to the dog park to play.

17 July 2009

So much happening.....

Here's the Reader's Digest version:

  • New teacher orientation at school yesterday. Finally got some info, now I can start planning my lessons
  • Got called in to sub for summer school today. Last day. Boring... But I got paid a lot to babysit.
  • Animal hoarding situation here in Hawaii. I'll be helping take care of the animals as they are taken from the property. Details to follow.
That's the short version. More details at a later date.....

15 July 2009

Why do I have to keep relearning things???

My workout this morning almost became a no-go. I sat at the computer for far too long ( I thought I could check my email since I had nowhere to go in the morning) and started to get hungry. Since I usually workout on an empty stomach I knew I couldn't eat then workout - that's a sure fire way to make me hurl. What to do?? I could eat but then I couldn't workout or I could workout starving. I finally decided to eat and then take the dogs to the park, I could workout when I came back. Off to the park. The dogs had great fun, I have 2 new foster dogs and the 4 of them just had a blast at the park. It was hot!!! On the way home all I could think about was taking a shower. But I still had to workout!! Ugh!!! Once I got home there was a debate in my head about working out or showering. At one point I told the dogs they had their fun now it was time for me to have my fun. The workout won. I did 30 mins strength training and 30 minutes of cardio intervals smelling like a rhino. Luckily only the dogs were around :)

As I was doing the intervals I was mentally patting myself on the back for making this workout a non-negotiable thing. That's really what I want it to be, completely non-negotiable, like brushing my teeth - it's annoying but I do it twice a day, every day, no matter what. Then another thing hit me, I'm pretty comfortable where I am right now. With my body. Sure, I would like to lose 20 lbs (or more) and I would like to be all buff and muscular but I'm not willing to invest the time and effort to get that. I do want to workout everyday because of the way it makes me feel mentally as well as physically and I want to do the marathon in December, but other then that I'm pretty happy with myself right now. I think I may have broken through that crazy, obsessive, nutso thinking that I just had to lose weight, I had to be a certain size, I had to workout so hard. Wow, I'm pretty impressed with myself. In many ways I'm really, really happy with me. I'm like the person that I am, I like the profession that I've chosen (finally), I like how I've become responsible (finally), and I think I finally like my body. I'm still going to workout (that's non-negotiable) and eat right because of the way it makes me feel and because of the things I want to do, not because I think I have to lose X lbs or wear size Y. I think I'm finally done with that. Wow!!! What a long strange trip it's been.

Time to focus on eating

My eating has been totally out of control lately. Either I don't eat enough or I'm eating junk. Yesterday started off so good and then I ate 1 cookie. Then another. Then another. You get the idea. I finished off the night with milk and peanut butter Oreos. Have you had those?? Don't!! They are crack!!!!! Anyway, now that I know what has to be done for the working out part, it's time to focus on the eating.

Here's today's plan:
Breakfast: Shredded Wheat (plain) with banana and protein powder
Snack: Cherries and string cheese
Lunch: Salad with steak
Snack: Apple with peanut butter
Dinner: Not sure yet.

There is no room in that menu for cookies. None at all. Hopefully by eating right and filling up on good nutritious food I'll burn fat or at least begin to.

Today's workout will be weights and cardio intervals then a trip to the dog park. Sounds like fun doesn't it?? Okay, time to get moving.

A lazy day

I had my first day off all summer today. Summer school ended yesterday so today I did nothing. Well, that's not entirely true. I did a lot of school work, for both the classes I'm teaching and the classes I'm taking. It was a very productive day. I did my workout this morning first thing and that was a great way to start the day.

In other news, I passed my final standardized test for teaching. Yea!! I was pretty confident that I failed it last month but it turns out I did really well on it. Hmmm....who knew??

That's it. I'm exhausted and need to get to bed.

13 July 2009

The new rules

are working out great. It's not so much about making it a habit, although that is the ultimate goal, it's about making working out not an option. I get up in the morning knowing that I can not turn the computer on until I work out. That's just the way it is, like not being able to eat dinner until you cook something. Not an issue, not a problem, just a fact of life. That's what I've made it and it seems to be working really well so far. In just 3 days I'm feeling like a rock star....and that feeling will carry me pretty far.

Other than that not much to say. I probably should get ready for work. It's the last day of summer school - yea!!!!

12 July 2009

A new attitude

My slight change of routine seems to be working well. I know it's only been two days but not jumping on the computer first thing in the morning sure frees up a lot of time. I also feel a lot more energetic and productive when I work out in the morning. So, the new rules are
  1. No computer in the morning until workout is complete
  2. Plan the workouts but no pressure - if I don't like it I won't do it.
  3. Do it everyday...
Next week I'm going to work on the eating. I've been eating will but I really haven't been eating enough. My schedule as so weird that I find myself eating lunch at 3 in the afternoon. So that has to change.

Well, a busy day today. I have to go shower and get ready to go.

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