07 March 2015
I should preface this entire post by saying it is one week until spring break, that may explain some of the frame of mind behind this week. Monday and Tuesday were perfectly normal. I went to school and all was good. Wednesday I woke up late, really late and just said screw it and stayed home. That lead to a lot of school work getting done and a trip to the new Target. At the new Target I got a Shark steam cleaner - I've wanted one forever. Stopped at Burger King on the way home. Had lunch then proceeded to vacuum and steam clean the living room and kitchen. Didn't walk the dogs because it was raining and didn't go to Crossfit for no apparent reason. I also ran to the doc's to get a TB test for Kamehameha. Woke up Thursday with every intention of going to work, only to discover that I had some serious intestinal distress. Serious!!! Curses Burger King!!!! So I ended up staying home Thursday too and good thing as I could not get far from the bathroom all day. As you can imagine, I did not walk the dogs or go to Crossfit on Thursday either. Yesterday dawned completely normal and I headed out to work with a stop at Starbucks. When I got to work my ancient laptop would not work. It booted up but it was taking forever to move between pages and to print anything. Ugh!!! It was seriously frustrating. I turned the computer on around 7:30 am and by 8:00 it was still not working right. I had to take homeroom attendance on my phone. That was it. That computer is old and barely works, so I decided I had enough. I went online and looked at Target and found a decent one for $199. Then I looked at Amazon and found a much better one for the same price. So I ordered it and it will be here Monday. The rest of the day went fairly normally and then it was done. On the way home I had to swing by the doc's to get my TB shot read and then, again for no apparent reason, I did not go to Crossfit. I actually didn't do much of anything last night. Made dinner, watched TV, played some computer games. That was it.
Last night was freezing cold, even now it's only 68F. I have to go to Crossfit and I just don't want to get dressed. I need to get moving though, I want to get this workout done and get back home. I plan on working on my prospectus today and getting it submitted today or tomorrow. I'm pleased with the energy and determination I finally have for it.
Okay, I'm going to get moving. Get dressed and head out to Crossfit. I can sit around later.
01 March 2015
Yesterday the Crossfit open started. Now the open and I have a bit of a history. In 2013 I was so excited for the open and I totally rocked those workouts. I got toes to bar and everything. 2014 rolls around and I'm super excited about them now. The problem was I was injured that year. I was a mess. I could hardly squat. I couldn't hold anything over my head for more than a second or two. I was a hot mess. I also didn't complete all the workouts. I felt like a loser. This year I approached with a bit of ambivalence. Having gone both ways, good and bad, I was unsure what this year would hold. The good part is that this year they are offering a scaled division. That made me hopeful. Yesterday was the first one. It was:
9 minute AMRAP
15 toes to bar
10 deadlifts 55#
5 Snatches 55#
Followed immediately by
6 minutes to find 1 RM clean and jerk
I am so close to the toes to bar and I was a little frustrated that I couldn't do them. But not that much. I ended up with 124 reps which works out to 4 full rounds plus 4. Not too shabby. Then it was on to the clean & jerk. I immediately did the 55# just in case I ran into any problems, at least I would have a score. Then I swapped out the light plates and put on the 25#, for a jump from 55# to 85#. Did it easy. Added 10#. No problem. Added 5#. No problem. Added 5# and started to feel a problem but I got it. With literally 1 minute left, I decided to try for more and threw on 5#. I got it. I probably could have gone higher if I had more time and wasn't so freaking tired, but I am pleased with what I did.
After my round, the girl who was scoring me and I were talking about the clean & jerk. She was expressing concern over the jerk. I said how that part is easy for me. If I can get it up, I can generally jerk it. She looked at me and said that's because you are built like a weightlifter. I didn't really catch that comment at the time. It was only later that it came back to me and literally stopped me in my tracks. I am built like a weight lifter. All my life I have wanted a thin, svelte body and that is never going to happen. I have muscles. I have huge traps, always have and I've always hated them. Now I love them because they make me strong. I've always hated my thunder thighs. Now I love them. I have a weightlifters body. What a revelation. That changes everything. How can I hate a body that does amazing things like lift 250# and clean & jerk 108# after doing a serious WOD. And then getting up and doing another WOD this morning. How can I hate a body like that? Yes, it is not thin and it never will be. It will never be a size 10 or maybe even a size 12 again. But I think I'm finally really and truly okay with that. I will continue to eat healthy and I will continue to do Crossfit and with any luck I'll lose a little weight but hopefully I'll gain more muscle.
It is amazing how one stray comment can change everything.