01 November 2014

Plans Today


I just realized that most people blog in the evenings. It is usually a recap of their day or week or whatever. Me??? I like to blog in the mornings. I really am a morning person and I like blogging in the morning as a way to kind of plan out my day. Not that it matters at all, I just find it interesting. I'm apparently not like most of the world :)

Today I have plans. It seems like I have plans more and more on the weekends. Not sure if that is good or bad since I have so much school work to do. Anyway, today I am box jumping. I'm heading over to Honolulu to WOD at CFO the mothership of my box. I've only WOD'd there once and done a couple of events. Just do not go there very often at all. Well, today is the day. My friend teaches Parkour there and I've decided to take a class and check it out. I will be WODing at 9am and Parkouring at 11am. Crazy? Probably, but I'm doing it anyway. I am second guessing this decision after the episode with my back yesterday. It is still rather sore this morning. Maybe I should pass on it this week and rest my back. Lord knows I've got enough stuff to do. Hmmm...... In fact, I just canceled that. I think resting my back is a better use of my time. Plus I got tons of work to do today. Plus, I just don't feel like it. So there.

Okay, moving on. I have a bunch of school work that I need to do, so that will be the order of the day. That and napping. Oh, and watching TV. Sons of Anarchy is on Netflix. Call the Midwife. I have an episode of Walking Dead. Yeah, I will be watching a lot of TV today. That actually sounds quite inviting.

31 October 2014

Gaining control


After last weekends complete and total break down (and it was a break down, believe me) I finally am getting things under control. The first thing I did was clean this room and open all that mail that was sitting here. Done and done. All this week I have opened every piece of mail that came in and dealt with it. Awesome feeling, not to be afraid of your mail. The second thing I did was to admit that 5 am Crossfit just does not work for me. I realized, while walking the dogs on Sunday, that I did not HAVE to go at 5 am. I was so focused on being able to go to the 5 am class because I didn't have to leave so early for work, that I completely forgot that I also get home earlier. I can get home in time to make it to the 4 pm class. Not only that, I'm done by 5 pm and still have time to walk the dogs. Boom! Problem solved. So this week, for the first time in a long, long time, I went to Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and tonight. 4 days of Crossfit. I have not done that in quite a while. It feels good. I have plans to go tomorrow but Sunday is iffy. I may not go on Sunday, we'll see. I only walked the dogs one night, but that was due to other issues. What I did have was lots of energy at night. I'm not taking a nap when I get home, I'm ready to go. Nice. The working out has influenced the eating. I'm not craving sugar and carbs, though I have still been eating some. I want to do a carb cycling thing, and tonight I had pizza :) This whole organization thing has spilled over into work. I have been grading all week and am completely on top of my grading. It is so nice to feel so completely in control and organized.

Now that I have a viable, working plan. I need to start building on it. Next week, Hubby works nights all week so there will be no walking of the dogs. I need to start working on my prospectus every night. Even if it's only for 15 minutes, it has to happen. So that is going to be my focus for next week. I will work on my prospectus every night at 8 pm for 15 minutes. Of course, I will be working on it extensively on Sunday. Sunday will be devoted to my video, prospectus, and field test. I can not get over how good it feels to be in control.

It is getting late and I need to feed the dogs and get to bed early.

26 October 2014

Avoidance


One of the reasons that my computer desk was such a disaster is that I had some mail on it that I did not want to face. Rather then open them and face the music, I've been throwing them on the pile and avoiding it. That was my goal today, to face that. I went through all the mail piled on the desk. I opened every piece and filed it away. That led to a major clean out of my file cabinet and a reorganization of my files. What did I find in those letters that I was avoiding? Nothing earth shattering. Nothing that should have caused all that stress and worry for so long. I can be such an idiot. Not only is my desk clean, but my entire room has been cleaned and organized. Wow! It is amazing how paralyzing fear can be. I was so afraid of those letters that I was frozen and couldn't do anything. Amazing. Now I feel so free and light. Seriously. I feel like I've lost 10 lbs. I know that was why I felt so fat. Stress.... I cannot begin to tell you how great I feel. I am now off to clean the rest of my house.

Relieving Stress


After Friday's live melt-down, I stepped up and took control. I prioritized the things that I needed to get done and I just started doing them. I needed quizzes for every class on Friday so I wrote, printed, and copied them all at one time. Boom, done!!! I needed permissions for the video I want to film, so I walked out and talked to my principal and then emailed the president. Boom, done! While the students were taking the quizzes I graded and entered them in the grade book so I don't fall even further behind in my grading. Boom, done! When I came home from school on Friday, I immediately started working on the wrist wraps. Got them done and delivered to the box just in case. Boom, done! On Saturday, I reviewed the article I needed to summarize and made a few notes while I was proctoring. Came home yesterday and wrote 2 pages. Submitted it last night. Boom, done!! Ended up going to the paint party just for a chance to relax. Honestly though, I couldn't really relax and didn't have that great a time. I made a painting that isn't very good just because I couldn't relax and be creative. Oh well, at least I got out for a couple of hours and my mind wasn't focused on what I should be doing. I did come home and clean up the kitchen which had been a complete mess, so that was good. Today on my agenda is cleaning house, planning out the video, and reading/annotating some articles. I'm supposed to go to Crossfit this morning but quite honestly I don't think I feel like it. I think I would rather stay here and get things done so my mind is clear. I have a ton of laundry to do and this desk is still a freaking disaster. I don't have to go to Crossfit until 10am so I'll see what happens. What I do know is that I feel so much better and not so stressed out I can't think.

So now the question is, how to avoid this in the future? I think I need to change a couple of things. First, don't be such a procrastinator. Instead of putting things off, either sit down and do them or set a time to do them. If I have a plan, I generally stick to it. Which leads to the second thing, have a plan for the day/hour/week/whatever. Whatever time period I have, have a plan. Even if that plan is to take a nap, have a freaking plan. Third, do not put on relaxing clothes until it is time to relax. Many times I come home after school, go swimming, then put on my nightgown. After that I'm pretty much done. I think it is a psychological thing. Once my nightgown is on, mentally I am done for the day. Yesterday I wore shorts and a shirt to proctor. After that I went to Costco. When I came home I didn't change because I knew I was going out later. I did lay down and take a short nap, but once I woke up I was wide awake. Then I did some stuff and left for my thing. When I came home at 8pm, I stayed in my shorts and was pretty productive. That is when I cleaned the kitchen at 9pm. So I think I need to stay dressed. No nightgown until I'm ready to go to bed, or at least completely done for the night and plan on sitting on the couch watching TV. Fourth, and final, how about now has to become my motto. I am a procrastinator but I know I can overcome it if I stay on top of it. So HOW ABOUT NOW is what I say all the time. Unless it is truly something that can wait to later, or if it is on my plan for later. I also need to face some things. I have some things that I have been avoiding and that creates stress. I just need to face up to them and deal with it. How about now? Okay, I'll do that today.

So I feel better and my mind is not so clogged with stuff. Nice. Since Hubby is still sleeping, I'm going to start by facing some of that stuff I need to face.

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