02 July 2005

I've got a new attitude.

I've been really down in a funk lately and I don't like it. I've been trying a bunch of different things but not sticking long enough to any one thing to see results. Of course, some things I know didn't work and I needed to stop them. So I've decided to tackle this a whole different way. I'm going to fake it. As someone commented to me yesterday, eat less and move more. Not only is it that but I need consistency. I do great for a few days and then I taper off and by Friday I'm feeling rotten. I know that if I exercise everyday not only will I feel way better about myself my eating will be way better. So that's it, I'm going to focus on moving more. I haven't really felt like exercising in weeks so my heart is not really in it. But I know that if I fake like I'm enjoying it eventually I will. Exercise in the morning when I get up (that works best for me) and do something at night when I come home (that prevents ice cream eating at night). It's simple. I've been making it way too complicated. Eat less, move more, and fake it till it's real! That's all.

On that note; I'm off to shower and head out to weight watchers, then it's a trail run on some beautiful sun dappled trail in the mountains.

30 June 2005

I'm tired.

I started this post this morning saying how interesting it was that things had just been kind of cruising along. I've been eating fairly well and exercise has been good. Then I stepped on the scale. I'm at 164.5. That so pissed me off and I just decided I'm tired. I'm tired of dragging my ass out of bed 6 mornings a week and exercising. I'm tired of forcing myself to exercise almost every night when I come home from work tired and worn out from the day. I'm tired of feeling guilty about a small piece of candy I eat in the afternoon. I'm just plain tired. I read in another blog that someone just wanted to be like normal people; eat want you want and not worry about calories or points or carbs or protein or whateva!!! Of course that raises the question, "If 60% of the American population is overweight - how exactly do "normal" people eat?" Do I want to be "normal"? I really am tired of constantly thinking about food and exercise. Everything revolves around food and exercise for me. What time I get up in the morning is determined by my activity that day. What time I go to bed is determined by what time I need to get up. When I leave the house I have to think about where I'm going, what I'm doing and what my food intake will be. Do I need to bring food? Will I be somewhere I can buy food and if so what? Am I sticking to my plan or throwing caution to the wind? Will I be gone for 1 or 2 meals? How will I fit my activity into my eating plan?? I'm tired, I'm just plain tired!!! I don't want to think about this stuff anymore!!!! I should note that I think I'm in full blown PMS mode right now and that might be the whole problem!!!!

28 June 2005

I feel good!!!

I had the best run this morning that I've had in a long time. As usual I really didn't feel like doing it but convinced myself to walk and then turned on the music. Well, before 2 minutes was up I was ready to run. I ran for 40 minutes running for 10 and walking for 1-1.5. For the last 2 10 minute segments I upped the incline a bit and that really made it harder. But I did it and felt awesome when I was done. Now I feel great and that's a great way to start the day!!!!

Social media holiday

I've decided to take a break from social media. I spend far, far too much time just scrolling through Facebook. Yes, I get a lot of in...