24 October 2015
My first week on WW is officially complete. I don't know when I stopped WW the last time exactly. I do know that it was over 3 years ago. I stopped for a variety of reasons, the main one being that I said it stopped working for me. Now, in hindsight, the truth is, I stopped working it. I also remember vividly becoming obsessed with the numbers. Obsessed. I would try to keep my points as low as possible. I didn't want to eat my weekly points and I was proud when I finished the day with daily points left over. That kind of thinking is what leads to eating disorders. That was definitely one of the main reasons I stopped WW last time. There was also the fact that I just wasn't doing it. I felt like it had stopped working for me but I know that wasn't the case at all.
So this week I'm back. I was not perfect, but I did it. I did not track all my food every day, but I tracked more than 90% so that is good. I ate my daily points. I ate my activity points. I ate my weekly points. I did not skimp on food and I refused to obsess over the numbers. What is, is.
Gotta run, the time got away from me. More when I return.
Okay, I'm back.
And then I left again and now it's 8:30 p.m. Okay, let's start at the beginning. I lost 2.4# this week. Nice. I'm pleased with that. I am feeling better. Not quite so huge, so things are going in the right direction.
I had a plan for my day, and when I got home I discovered my phone has taken a crap. Because of the insurance I have, I have to take it into town to see if it can be fixed. Then I get an email from Hubby to say his plans changed and we are going to Costco today. I wasn't planning on that so I needed to rearrange my day. So it was off to Costco and shopping for the week. At least that is all done and I don't have to deal with it tomorrow. At WW this morning I bought some smoothie mix and some oatmeal. After the Costco trip, I spent some time in the pool and it was 2 p.m. already. A short nap and then it was time to walk the dogs. Dinner, clean up and some time in my class and boom, it's 8:30 and I'm tired.
A side note, I injured my foot on May 16th. On October 5th, I stated that I had been pain free for almost 3 weeks. That has continued and I have been good about wearing shoes in the house and the type of shoes I wear to school and such. On Friday of this week, I realized that I had not thought about my foot all week. I had gone a week without even thinking about the pain in my foot. I still consider the shoes I wear in the morning, but then completely forget about it. I think I can cautiously say, I'm over it. Whew. It only took 5 months. I can walk the dogs and not have it bother me. I walk on the treadmill and can feel it a little bit but as soon as I stop its all good. Now I need to work on increasing my activity. I want to start really working out and I'm just kind of stymied as to how to do it. Not sure why, but I am. Something to work on.
Okay, I'm tired and I'm going to bed.
19 October 2015
I was so focused on finding someway to get my eating under control that I completely forgot about my issues with WW. And I do have issues. Almost everything else I can get around, but I have a huge issues with numbers. When counting points, I try to get the lowest points possible. In the past, that has led to me being hungry, tired, cranky, etc. Not good. I found myself doing yesterday. I was counting points before I ate the breakfast Hubby prepared for me and realized that it was way too high in points. Luckily, I came to my senses in time and ate a decent breakfast, but I did give the dogs some of it. Same thing happened with dinner on Saturday night. I tried to go for the lowest point thing, but again, came to my senses and ordered something reasonable. I need to switch my thinking when it comes to points. I need to think the same way I do about calories. I have got to eat my 27 points as a minimum. Lower than that and things get ugly. Have to work to keep that attitude. The good news is, I ate my activity points both Saturday and Sunday and yesterday dipped into my weekly extra points. Must remember, food is fuel and I must fuel my body or it will not work right.
On a good note, I have been tracking my points since Saturday morning and am feeling a difference already. Walked the dogs for almost 2 hours Saturday and yesterday and yesterday I felt no back pain at all. None. Huge. I know for a fact that the back pain is directly related to my weight. When the pounds creep up a little, boom, back pain. When I eat without stuffing myself and the pounds creep downward, boom, no back pain. It is related to the size of my stomach.
The first 2 days back on WW were a little tough. Whenever I switch eating modes I always feel like it's not enough. Absolutely ridiculous, I know, but true. Forget the fact that there are days I can go without eating for 10-12 hours and it not bother me at all. As soon as I start a new eating modality, boom my brain freaks out. Knowing that was a huge step forward though. Yesterday, after walking the dogs, I wanted something to munch on. I asked myself if I was hungry, and I wasn't, so I didn't eat anything. Amazing....
Last night I packed my food for today with the intention of hitting 24 this morning. Okay, that didn't happen. But I am on the treadmill writing this, so that's good at least. As I made my food, I logged everything into WW so it's all there today. All I need to do is delete it if I don't eat it or change the amount, whatever. Need to do that every day/night. Also, think I need a second cup of coffee this morning. I guess I'll take it with me.
Okay, so the WW journey is off to a good start. I just need to gain momentum and keep it moving forward. I know the plan works if I work the plan.
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